Saturday, July 11, 2009

Crazy hair and honest prayer




This would be one of Alivia's crazy hair mornings caught on film.
She had my mp3 player on and was just walking around the house singing praises to God.

She is really full of Jesus and loves her life.
And I just love being around her.

Earlier in the week, Alivia and Gene came home from Florida while our now 15 year old son Aaron stayed longer with Gene's family.
Which is something Alivia cannot grasp.
Everyday since being home, Gene and I have been accused of favoring Aaron since she is in Nebraska and he is not.

Aaron doesn't help the situation when he calls and taunts her with
"I'm still in Florida. Ha ha ha" which sends my drama queen into a tailspin of frustration.

He loves it.
She cries and hangs up on him.
He calls back.
She answers each time only to hang up on him again and again.
I suppose she expects he will eventually apologize to her, but she only receives more teasing from the land of oranges.

He loves it.

After asking Aaron to back off I found out that apparently, the phone calls of torture began after he received a text message from my little princess.
From my phone.
Thankfully Aaron is smart enough to know who sent the message since I spell out my words and would never send him a text like this:

"U r so rude u get 2 stay longer idot"

"Idot" is supposed to say idiot which she did get a talkin' to about calling people names even if it is through a non-verbal text message.

Last night I had to work at 11pm and it was one of those nights that I just wanted to stay home and fall asleep reading a book next to Gene.
I took my book and my bad mood to work and called home to talk to Alivia since she was still awake when I left the house.
She asked me if we could pray together.
"Of course," I answered and started praying over her which made my bad mood melt like an ice cube in a hot cup of coffee.

After I said Amen, I started to tell her goodnight when she interrupted me with this...

"Dear Lord,

Thank you for my Mommy and my Daddy. Thank you for Alyssa, Amiyah, Juliana and Kane (the dog).

Please help Aaron to have a safe trip back home.

Even though he is my worst enemy.

In Jesus' name,
Amen.

Good night Mommy, I love you."

~sigh~
At least she didn't call him an Idot.

I just wonder...how can Aaron torture this sweet little godly thing?

~Many Blessings~

Friday, July 10, 2009

Hanging On

If you have come by for the YES to GOD Tuesday study of Liz Curtis Higgs' book, Embrace Grace, I will have this weeks and next weeks chapters posted together next Tuesday. I'm so sorry, but I have traveled to KC three times in a week so I'm a little behind on stuff.

Been faced with some challenging stuff as of late in my walk with God and I tell you what...
I love my Savior more than even an hour ago and He is worth every step of this journey of the unknown with Him.
The Enemy on the other hand I could do without. Funny how Satan can get under your skin and just not give up on trying to bring you down. Amazing how he can make you question your faith, your talents and even how you are as a mother. If you let him that is. So I'm trying hard to focus on what God alone says about me.



These last few weeks I have learned much about the God I serve. I know I am so far from perfect that when I think too hard on it my mind just swirls in confusion that God even wants to be associated with the likes of me. He knows me better than anyone on earth does and that
doesn't stop Him from loving me and wanting to use my past, present and future for His glory.



Last week my husband and our 2 younger kids were at a family reunion in Florida.
Friday night they were at a hotel and there was another family reunion going on at the same time. Suddenly, a worried Grandma from the other reunion rushed over to Gene's family and described her 2 year old grandson. He had been missing for over an hour and she asked Gene's family to please look for him.
Within moments a lot of screaming started happening. Gene said it was so loud and piercing that his first thought was that someone had gotten shot. Even though he had kept Alivia in his sight, he began screaming for her to get to him immediately as Aaron was already near his side.

Suddenly the screaming from everyone became more intense and everyone began to point up.
They were in a courtyard and up on the top floor, the 15th floor, there was the missing little boy on the outside of the balcony dangling in the air. Aaron later described how he kept moving his foot backward like he was trying to put it on the ledge.
Here is a picture Gene and I found on the Internet of the hotel courtyard and it doesn't even show the top floor but you can get the idea of how high up it is.
Panic exploded out of the hearts of the little boys' family members and prayers began to be spoken out loud from the hearts of Gene and his family members.
My brother in law Will who has been a sheriff detective for 23 years in Orlando immediately went into the serve and protect mode and ran all 15 flights of stairs trying to get to him before he let go.
People on the ground started yelling instruction to the toddler begging him to not let go of the slippery railing he was holding on to. Others frantically grabbed cushions off couches putting them on the ground underneath where he was dangling hoping to soften the landing if he fell. Gene said he was so high up though that the thin cushions wouldn't have done a thing to help him.

He also told me that it was so scary...the type of fright you see on the big screen and he couldn't watch another minute of it. It's one thing to watch Tom Cruise hanging in danger in a movie, but to watch a two year old in real life is completely different. In tears Gene retreated to the room his family had rented and began to pray along with an Aunt and cousin.

My sister-in-law Dianne grabbed hold of the little boys' aunt that was running in no direction and just held her as she had about lost her mind searching for help.
And my kids watched in disbelief probably hoping if God answered any of their prayers that these would be the ones that would get His attention.


Angels had to have been holding on to this childs wrists until a curious hotel employee working on the 15th floor heard all the commotion and ran to the balcony to see what was happening in the courtyard below. Thankfully, he saw the little boy and quickly reached over the edge of the balcony and pulled him to safety. I'm sure a lot of held breath was released at that by-the-grace-of-God moment.


Aaron called me within minutes of this happening and I could tell that he was just completely shaken. As a Mom it was hard to be 1,500 miles away listening through a phone to the adrenalin make my big strong teenager's deep voice tremble as he described to me what he just witnessed.

My brother-in-law Will told Gene that in all the years he has been a detective, he has seen some horrible stuff, but never saw anything so scary in all his years on the force.

And when I talked to Gene later that night he told me he cried watching this child hold on for his life and how he felt so helpless so he just prayed. Made me fall in love all over again with the tender heart that pounds within my husbands chest.


Desperation for a life to be saved brings out the heroes,
the prayer warriors
and the love for the one needing the saving.
Until we say yes to Jesus Christ we are all just dangling.
Inches from our eternal death.
All in need of a Holy Hero.


I wonder when we make choices in our life that leave us barely hanging on if that is the reaction that goes on in heaven.
When we are on the path that leads to death do the angels try their hardest to save us?
Are they frantic in hope that we will say yes to the gift of salvation because they know that nothing can cushion a landing in hell?
Do they start praising Jesus on our behalf like the members of both family reunions did when they knew the boy was out of harms' way?



At two years' old, I'm sure he was so unaware of what had just happened to him.
What he had just put everyone through.
Within a little over an hour he went from being with family to probably returning to play time with his cousins minutes after being plucked from the hands of death.
I'm sure at such a young age he didn't thank his hero.
Thank you for saving my life more than likely never came out of his little mouth.
After being hugged and kissed on, he probably just went on with his little life.
Unaware that he just got a second chance.
Unaware that God isn't through with him on earth yet.
Unaware that he was saved.


How do we thank our Hero?
Do we live a life that brings Him glory or do we just go about our business our way?
Do we realize how we escape death when we invite Him to come into our life?
Do we know and appreciate that we just got a second chance or do we live unaware that God has plans for our lives?
Unaware that we've been saved.


This has really made me think about my walk with Christ.
I know I want more of Him.
I know I need more of Him.
I don't want to go through life unaware of His time spent on the cross.
Time He spent hanging in my place.


Thank you sweet Jesus for saving this little boy's life.
Thank you for the visual you gave me of You doing the same thing for me.
Thank you for hearing my continuous plea of needing you while dangling from the balcony of life and never failing to come to my rescue.
You are so precious to me.
You are my Hero.


Like I said before, I have no idea why He wants anything to do with me.
He is the closest I'll ever come to perfection.
These last few months, weeks and days I feel closer to Him than ever before and when the Enemy tries to throw me over the balcony of life, I know I can call confidently upon a Savior who won't just throw pillows below me to soften my fall, but instead will come running in response to my invitation and reach over the edge and pull me up close to Him.


I love you so much Lord.

~Many Blessings~
Next Tuesday...chapters 3 & 4 for the YES to GOD study of Liz's book.


Saturday, July 4, 2009

Let Freedom Ring

RED
The blood of Jesus that was viciously shed in our place so that we can have eternal life.




White
When we ask Jesus to forgive us for our ugly sins, we are washed as white as snow.
BLUE
When we live life away from having Christ as the center of it, life can feel very defeating. Learning to trust in Jesus and rely on Him for the little and big things in life can be an everyday battle, but worth every minute.


Freedom is giving God areas of our life that we would rather control.
Freedom is letting go and letting God.
Freedom is looking in the mirror and seeing Jesus in you.
Freedom is when the tomb was empty.
Freedom is giving God permission to deal with Satan, our Enemy.


Have a blessed 4th of July.


~Many Blessings~

Thursday, July 2, 2009

YES to GOD study: Ch. 2: Embrace Doubt

Sorry I'm late. I was out of town having a God blessed visit with Kelley and her family.


For the summer study we are reading Liz Curtis Higgs' book


CHAPTER 2: EMBRACE DOUBT
Anything in blue is a quote from the book.


Throughout the pages of each chapter, Liz has included comments sent to her from the women who read her books followed by Liz's responses in orange.

Comments such as:


"This is a very dark time for me.
I have been feeling
abandoned of late."
For all of those dark times, here's a word of hope: God meets us
where we are. Even if we aren't looking in his direction, he
is always looking in ours.

****

"I'm not much into God.
The whole thing
seems a little hard to believe."
An honest statement.
The notion of God's coming to earth as an infant wrapped
in swaddling clothes, then willingly dying in his early thirties to
atone for the sins of an ungrateful world---well, it is far-fetched.
Very far.
Beyond the limits of human imagination.
Only an infinite God could design such an effective long-
range plan.
****

"Looking back I can now see
God's wonderful hands
guiding me back to him."
Indeed, he gives us second chances, third, fourth, fifth
chances---oh, far to many too count.
You see, it's God's faithfulness---not ours---that makes the
difference. He can handle our suspicions and fears, our
mis-givings and apprehensions. He is not dissuaded by our cynicism,
our incredulity. He understands doubt.
****

"I've had so many bad things
happen in my life
that I've started to question God."
A legitimate response. Question away, sis. Confess your
uncertainty.
Then relax in knowing that it's not your belief in God's
existence that defines him. God simply is. His is love incarnate,
and his righteousness endures forever.
Our doubt does not diminish God one iota.
When we come to the end of ourselves, God is just getting started. (I loved that!)
****

"I was well aware that Jesus was out there
waiting for me
and that he could turn it all around for me,
but I just didn't care.
Finally I came crawling back to Christ,
begging him to forgive me
and fill that place again."
We may not know where "that place" inside us is or what
it's called, but we know very well when it's empty. And who
alone can fill it.




Have you ever said or thought any of those things before?

Liz begins this chapter with the fact that trust is an issue for many.


We conquer those fears as we mature, but at the deepest level we never forget them. Old fears continue to color out emotional responses and produce feelings of doubt and uncertainty.


I love how Liz encouraged us to ask God questions and reassured us that our doubts, whether it's about Him or our purpose does not knock Him off of His throne.

Life can sometimes get the best of us.
And yet, we have a God that sits in heaven watching over us and is absolutely crazy about us.
Even on our bad heart days.

Let me leave you with what Liz left us with in this chapter...

This is a hands-on kind of Savior. He sees the lack of trust
in our eyes, hears the dubious note in our voices, and feels the
tremor in our fingers as we tentatively grasp the hem of his
garment.
In the face of our doubt, the Lord offers a sure word of encouragement.

Don't be afraid;
just believe.
Mark 5:36



God is good everyday and everyday God is good.

Hope you are having a blessed summer.

If you have something on your own blog to share of this chapter please sign up under Mr. Linky below. Or if you just have something to share, leave it in the comments below.
Love to hear your thoughts.

Has God freed you from something and you want to share about it by linking your favorite post or a new post you want to write?
Stop by on Saturday, 4th of July for
Red, White and No More Blues!

~Many Blessings~
Next Tuesday...chapter 3: Embrace Faith

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

YES to GOD study: Ch. 1: An Open Door

So glad you have dropped by for the summer study of



Hope that you all had a blessed weekend celebrating Father's Day.
On Sunday morning I was at the kitchen table writing my Father's Day post keeping a watchful eye on Alivia. She was insistent that she make and serve Gene breakfast in bed. All by herself.




So she sprayed the skillet, cracked all 6 eggs, scrambled them with a whisk, poured them into the pan, heavily salted them, peppered and stirred them.
She toasted a piece of bread, buttered it, dropped it on the dirty floor, picked it up and without losing her rhythm spread jelly on it.
I gagged.
She made 4 pieces of bacon and a cup of cappuccino in the microwave and even made a package of instant grits.
All by herself.


She got out a cookie sheet, put a placement on it along with an index card with the message HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! Love, Alivia she then went and woke him up.


I knew a little dirt wouldn't hurt him so I just smiled as Gene took a bite of the toast.
He told her how good it was and she beamed.
Knowing the dirty toast was being served to the man that ate this last year, I just let them enjoy their moment.
All by themselves.


He was blessed, loved and full.
Conveniently too full to eat all of the overly salted eggs.
I just pray if I get breakfast in bed anytime soon from Miss Alivia that she serves me cereal. Suddenly I'm allergic to toast and eggs that make you thirsty.

Okay...

CHAPTER 1: AN OPEN DOOR
Anything in blue is a quote from the book.


I loved the beginning of this chapter. I imagined Liz standing in the front door of her home just welcoming us in. To say that I'm glad to see you is a major understatement. Thrilled is more like it. Curb my enthusiasm? No way. Not when it's you.

Can't you just see Jesus saying that to us when we arrive in Heaven?




After inviting us into her home, Liz tells us That's what this visit is all about: slipping off the old and putting on the new. Letting go of the past and embracing freedom with our whole hearts.



Ms. Higgs has God's Word splashed throughout this chapter as if to back up the words from her heart.

1 Timothy 6:19b
Take hold of the life that is truly life.

The forgiven life. The grace-filled life.



That is one thing that really captured my attention with this book. Over the last year I have been told numerous times through e-mails and comments left of how much grace I have shown my teenage daughter who if you don't know, have given birth twice in one year. I do feel that I have shown her some grace, but I have also made the choice to watch her walk out my door covered in a coat of shame that I put on her.

So, how do I change? How do I clothe my girl in grace instead of shame?

It begins with an embrace, which is more than an elegant word for hug.

Hugs are short-lived and friendly...

An embrace is more intentional. Longer. Warmer. Far more personal.

Before reading this, I have never thought of the differences between a quick hug versus a embrace with intention.

We simply let the strength of our embrace express the depth of our thoughts and feelings.

I believe in you.

I support you.

I treasure you.

I love you.

Liz goes on to tell us that it doesn't matter where we have been, what we have done in our lives, that we are already wrapped in the Lord's embrace. Held close by nail-scarred hands.

She goes on to tell us that He is waiting for a return embrace from us. To accept the gift he's offering you. To listen for the whispered words you've longed a lifetime to hear:

You are loved. All is forgiven.

We are told the purpose of this book we are discussing:
Embrace Grace is for those hard-to-imagine days when the gospel seems too good to be true.

She wraps the chapter up with the sweet reminder that God has plans for us according to

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."



She encourages her readers to follow Him, saying it is the key.

God will be there for you, however dark the hour, however tenuous your faith.


How reassuring to know that no matter how dark the storm gets, God is there.
He is the One that will lead if we will just follow.


At the end of this brief, but power-packed chapter Liz had 3 questions under a section called Before You Turn the Page...
I really urge you to take the time to answer the questions she gives us.

In the comments below if you want to answer this question please do so:
What words do you wish God would whisper in your ear?

If you have more to share on your own blog, then please sign up under Mr. Linky below so we can come visit you. If you don't have a blog and are reading along you can leave your thoughts in the comments section. If you haven't picked up your book yet and you want to join in, you can join in anytime...we'd love to have you!

Have a wonderful rest of the week and don't forget to answer the question. Even if you're not reading the book, join in.

~Many Blessings~
Next Tuesday read and be ready to discuss chapter 2:
Embrace Doubt